Elle Knew

This is a copy of an original post by MIKE from my my old forum

Garazon and the "Black Sheep" go way back, even before we started calling ourselves by that name.  He and I both had small communities, and joined each other's for support.   I like to think we had an instant "connection", seeing in each other a thirst for knowledge, an open mind, and a sensitive nature.

(maybe I'm fooling MYSELF, but those certainly are Garazon's qualities!   )
 
But, the way these things go, esp. in Groups, we all would get bored every now and then,  and elle and I wouldn't see Garazon for the longest time.  After awhile, I would say to elle in chat, "Wonder what happened to the big G?  Guess he got bored with it all, and is taking a break."
 
Elle would tell me "No, I expect his wife got tired of all the time he was spending on the computer!"
 
"Nah." I would sneer.  "He wouldn't stand for that.  He likes doing this stuff too much.  He's probably just bored, or maybe he's putting in too many hours at work."
 
"Could do." elle would retort "I still reckon he is doing what his wife wants.  He loves her very much, you know."
 
"How do you know that?" I asked.
 
"Women can tell these things, Mike."  she replied.  "I just know."
 
I thought about that, and didn't argue.  
 
Then, we would see Garazon again, and he would hang around some, but would disappear for the longest time.
 
"Worried about Chester!" I would tell elle.
 
"Don't be." elle would say. "He's just trying to spend time with his wife.  You know he loves her very much."
 
Well, me being a guy, how would I know?  
 
Then, Gretchen joined the Group.  I no longer had a relationship with my sweet elle by that time, but I thought back on what she used to say. "He loves her very much."  I figured Gretchen just wanted to share the friends that Garazon had made online….because she "loved HIM very much."
 
If a woman thousands of miles away, who had never met the people she's talking about, but had only known them second hand, only through posts in a message board and on IM, had got it correctly, and knew of a man's love for his wife, then…..
 
I figure that Gretchen knew Chester loved her very much, too….and still does.
 
God Bless and Keep You , Chester.  All of us "black sheep" love you and I have been praying for your pain to ease.

Thanks for sharing that Mike, that eases some of the worry I have, I question myself lately about everything, especially if she knew how much I did love her,  I wonder if she could could see in her eyes, the way I saw how she loved me in hers…  
 
You know, she never once hinted or gave indication that I was spending too much time on the computer,  and I think  she was actually happy for me that I had something that I loved to do, and I don't know if you remeber, but a couple of Christmases ago, she bought me a new chair for my desk, She was SO pleased with herself about finding the perfect gift for me. She said it was the best  present she had ever come up with on her own..  
So in a way you were both right, I dio occassionally get bored with the groups, and work has been a factor, and yes I did like to spend time with her,.
 
Thank you agian and the rest of the Black Sheep as welll..you guys keep us in your thoughts and prayers, we'll be needing them.
 
G  

Meanderings Chester, Christmas, friends, God, Gretchen, Love, work