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Well it has been almost 3 months since the last update on this site.. and it just so happens that was about the time that God sent an angel of love into my life, so obviously I have been busy in more important things than maintaining a website :) Happily busy as a matter of fact.. :-)

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Well it has been almost 3 months since the last update on this site.. and it just so happens that was about the time that God sent an angel of love into my life, so obviously I have been busy in more important things than maintaining a website :) Happily busy as a matter of fact.. :-)

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To the special friends I’ve made in the last few weeks.. those across the country, and the one very far away….

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A worthwhile endeavor.. Operation Photo Rescue is helping the families of Hurricane Katrina to recover and restore family pictures damaged in the storm. Sometimes a photo is all that is left, and they become priceless treasures.

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It's so quiet around here this Thanksgiving Eve. Usually we were up till midnight finishing up all the cooking and preparations. The aroma of all the food was so thick you could taste it.  I used to tease Gretchen and the girls for going to all the trouble for what I called a "20 minute snack"   , but it was worth it all.  On the night before Thanksgiving,  I would have fixed the collards,  while the girls and Gretchen finished up the last of the desserts.. so much work went into, everyone was always worn out, but it was a labor of love..  
 
This year we just couldn't do anything here. Thankfully our neice and my sis in law got busy and  are going to host the dinner.  They are godsends. My girls got together at the oldest daughters house to fix the pies.  It gives them a chance to be active in the dinner, but not to have to deal with trying to do it here.  I guess we look for what causes the least pain.  
 
I miss the laughter and the fussing and all that went into getting the dinner together.  Sometimes it seemed we weren't going to get it all done, but somehow we did.  
 
d**n this all seems so bizarre. Sometimes it feels like I'm caught in a Twilight Zone episode. Sometimes it feels numb, other times it hurts so much.  
 
 
I miss you bunches baby..  
 
 

This is a copy of an original post from my my old forum

I’ve been dreading  the idea of having to cope with  the holidays that are right upon us.  It still seems so surreal and trying to imagine going through the days ahead is very unsettling.

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Oh sweety some days it's just so hard. Theres not a day, and hour, a minute goes by that I don't feel the pain and grief.  I wonder at times how much longer I can hang on like this. You were half of me, there's now a hole that will never be filled.  God how I miss your touch.. your hugs, the comfort and love I found in your arms.  I look around and the memories are everywhere. You left us so many. I thank God for them, and you. We were together all the time.  You were my life, how do I go on now? What do I do?  I try to make it hour to hour, I can't even look ahead more than a day at a time. I find myself breaking down at the oddest times. I don't think those who haven't lost a spouse can even begin to know the  how dark a soul can get when their life's love is taken away.  
 I don't like this baby. It's not right, it's unfair and I hate having to go on without you. It's not like I'm suicidal or anything like that, but the desire to live is no where to be found.  I guess I'm just having a self pity party tonight. I just want to talk to you, and hug you and kiss you good night.
I miss you so much Gretchen,  
 
Loving you always
Chester

This is an original post from my my old forum

Looking back, I guess I was still in a somewhat state of shock during the first few days.  The day is still mostly a blur. The things I remember:
 
Getting dressed: I remember putting on my suit and thinking back to the time that I bought it.  When Gretchen's grandmother died a few years ago, I didn't have a suit that fitted me. The only one I had was one from when we were first married, and our social life never really involved a lot of dressing up.. So of course that one was way too small.  So we went out to buy one. Gretchen helped me pick it out.  Weird the things that come to your mind during times like this..  

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 This is an original post from my my old forum

So many times we take the little things in life for granted.  

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This is a copy of an original post by MIKE from my my old forum

Garazon and the "Black Sheep" go way back, even before we started calling ourselves by that name.  He and I both had small communities, and joined each other's for support.   I like to think we had an instant "connection", seeing in each other a thirst for knowledge, an open mind, and a sensitive nature.

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